i was tested for Dyslexia when i was in 2nd grade and around this time what then my self esteem took a downward spiral. I hated being called on to read out loud to my class and pronounced a word wrong or answer a math question wrong cause i thought 32 was 23 around 4th grade was when i developed a fear of people judging me rejecting me. i dont think its ever been as bad as it is now cause my cousin know my phobias and love to make me feel like trash by exploiting them same as the rest of my family. its frustrating that the people that should love you beat you down for something you cant control. thanks for reading.