how do i connect to my therapist?
i've had bad therapists the last couple of years. they laughed at me when i told them that i was multiple.
they tried to get rid of me for almost 4 years.
now i have a really good one, specialized in DID, hypnotherapist, sexologist, and maybe even more idk.
we really like her.
how can i be honest with her? i catch myself on dismissing and avoiding all the things that have to do with DID. it's been burned into my net by the other t's. i cant afford not to be believed again.
i really want to be honest with her. i want to connect and tell her what's going on. im even too scared to tell her about how the other therapists dismissed me because that is also about DID.
she told me often to write down everything i think of in between sessions but we just stop it from happening. this is wasting time and i dont want to sit there and talk about meaningless stuff and appear like nothing's wrong, and appear like im too weak to talk about it because that's not true. when i went to therapy at first i was quite open about it but the other therapists messed that up for me.